Jambled mess of thoughts.

I'm so tired but I want to try to get this down while it is fresh in my mind.
So I had made plans this weekend to attend a human trafficking seminar at ZBC. I was then presented with an opportunity to attend the Band banquet being attended by a huge chunk of my music major friends. I really wanted to go, but K and I were planning on spending the night at ZBC, so I couldn't do both. I was hemming and hawing trying to figure out what to do, and then I prayed. Sounds so simple right? (I'm getting back to praying about decisions, and giving them serious thought). I came to the decision that if I went to ZBC, then I would have more of an opportunity to affect someone's life or to make a difference. God wanted me there, that was all I knew. Friday evening comes, and K and I decide it would be better to head to ZBC in the morn and not spend the night, so I tried to go to the banquet...no tickets. I was alone, and I was depressed. Then I prayed. I was having a couple of days where the rough patches were catching up with me and really bringing me down, but of one thing I was still certain, God wanted me to go to ZBC. I then said to Him "This better be good!" ( I was really tired and upset!!)
K and I went, and I really think we went so God could remind her of some things, which is awesome. I've been inspired to write another song (which I haven't done in a while). While I did learn about HT, there were other things that happened that God used in a simple way to remind me, just how awesome being in tune with Him was. I'm really excited about God, and I haven't felt that way in a while.

Yeah, I think I will start this again. I think it's healthy. :)

I'm resisting the urge to delete my previous post. As much as I love to see how I've grown and matured...and made sense out of things, and have stopped being stupid in some areas (hehe that never stops), I still hate to look back on it. :P
O well, I believe I will try to do this again. Maybe build up my readers :), get some good conversations going.
I have changed a lot since July. I also believe that to be an understatement. Instead of going into details that are long and boring for you my reader, I will sum it up in this song by Natalie Grant.

"Will Not Be Moved"

I have been the wayward child
I have acted out
I have questioned Sovereignty
And had my share of doubt
And though sometimes my prayers feel like
They're bouncing off the sky
The hand I hold won't let me go
And is the reason why...

[Chorus:]
I will stumble
I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ the Solid Rock I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved

Bitterness has plagued my heart
Many times before
My life has been like broken glass
And I have kept the score
Of all my shattered dreams and though it seemed
That I was far too gone
My brokenness helped me to see
It's grace I'm standing on

[Chorus]

And the chaos in my life
Has been a badge I've worn
Though I have been torn
I will not be moved

[Chorus]


More to come!